So I know it's been so loo-ong since I last wrote. Soz. Let me begin by saying that I HATE the new Blogger layout, it's probably why I haven't even tried to write here. The second reason being my super-awesome *rolls eyes* wi-fi at hostel. Needless to say, I'm home now, for the Dussehra break. College was excruciating the first month - three projects, the internal moot selection and first term exams. Now it's a 'lean period', so as to speak. But I've noticed I look forward to coming home on weekends, something I didn't do earlier. Even my friends have noticed.
So something really funky happened yesterday. You may not agree with the term 'funky' when you know what happened, but let's not digress. I was hanging out with my wingmates last night, a group of five girls when the topic suddenly changed to guess what - me. So my roommate said something about me that the others didn't know about, and then they were all like, so how come we didn't know that types. And then my roommate said that I never revealed stuff about me to people. That even during the most elaborate conversations what I say is regular random stuff while people are actually talking more real stuff. That I talk trivialties and make people think I'm being friendly and also give them the feeling that I'm close to them.
I have to admit I was more than shocked to hear that. It was said in a jocular way, but I couldn't help feeling like I was some sort of a scheming, manipulative person who learnt about people without letting them in on anything. That got me thinking, and well, for the most part, it's true. I don't let people in on stuff. I don't tell them my feelings about the most significant things. My conversation thrives on humour and random comments. I have issues with expressing affection. I know that. But I never quite put it the way she did last night. Also, I don't think I'm vamp-ish and manipulative. But then that part is kinda subjective.
I hope that's not how people think of me.
But let's stop with the emo crap now. Have to go eat donuts!
P.S. The title is a song I love, and have been listening to non-stop since yesterday. No connection to the post.
So something really funky happened yesterday. You may not agree with the term 'funky' when you know what happened, but let's not digress. I was hanging out with my wingmates last night, a group of five girls when the topic suddenly changed to guess what - me. So my roommate said something about me that the others didn't know about, and then they were all like, so how come we didn't know that types. And then my roommate said that I never revealed stuff about me to people. That even during the most elaborate conversations what I say is regular random stuff while people are actually talking more real stuff. That I talk trivialties and make people think I'm being friendly and also give them the feeling that I'm close to them.
I have to admit I was more than shocked to hear that. It was said in a jocular way, but I couldn't help feeling like I was some sort of a scheming, manipulative person who learnt about people without letting them in on anything. That got me thinking, and well, for the most part, it's true. I don't let people in on stuff. I don't tell them my feelings about the most significant things. My conversation thrives on humour and random comments. I have issues with expressing affection. I know that. But I never quite put it the way she did last night. Also, I don't think I'm vamp-ish and manipulative. But then that part is kinda subjective.
I hope that's not how people think of me.
But let's stop with the emo crap now. Have to go eat donuts!
P.S. The title is a song I love, and have been listening to non-stop since yesterday. No connection to the post.
